The Most Anticipated Event

This is the first time I've had attended in this kind of event.And sure it was worth of all the expense you'd contributed to it -- with all the flamboyant organization of the event and the delightful cuisines on the said night, sure you wouldn't want to miss such once-a-year affair. As expected, the night we've spent altogether with the other Foreign Service students (including the outgoing batch of 4th year FS students who've also managed to celebrate their  "Tribute to the Graduates") was certainly amusing.

The JDC Nite's center stage under the sun

The Invitation for the FS studes was surely 
designed extravagantly

The Beginning of the Big Nite

The set-up of the center stage under the moon  XD

The Catering service for the said event

The scrumptious foods that were served to us

And for the finishing photo for the night's affair... ^_^

[I miss you all FS2A~!]

My Ideal Man

I would prefer to love a man who's an active member of INC and a "MAY-TUNGKULIN" or in short, a GOD-LOVING man who'll always fear Him (topmost priority); humble or down-to-earth person whatever goal/s he may have reached; a person with a kind and good heart; "hindi pala-mura"; the one who'd always say "I HATE vices!", man without piercing, the one who'd always LOVE me for who I am and who'd always protect me, the man who'd always stay beside me and love me constantly though there's no more reason for him to see; the one who'd always comprehend me, even my deepest thoughts no matter how hard for him to understand me; the one who'd always love to sing for me even he's out-of-tuned and the man who'd still perceive me beautiful even our hairs have been grayed by the passing time.

Erase the Animosity

I don't want to entertain this kind of feeling anymore. I don't want to be devoured alive by this monstrous HATRED that I feel. And it's building up inside me and I can feel that it could explode anytime it wants to. I don't want the time would come that one day, I will wake up from a sound sleep, and suddenly, I'll just realize that I am NOW -- totally like - HIM.

Truth can prevail how much I really don't want to be like HIM, yet this abomination still lingers on me. Despite the great will I am desiring to impede myself from being like this, still, there are too many reasons why I feel this way. I am in so much pain once I think of this dillema of mine. Whensoever I envision myself being like him, feels like every thorns of roses you could see around you, pricks deep into my heart and soul.

I really don't want to be like this anymore. Still, whenever a certain situation comes, or every time his around, I always get easily irritated or annoyed... As soon as I see him, all the things he had ever done comes flashing right through my memories, and all these refreshes throughout my brain. In spite of that, I do still sympathize him, I could also feel his sufferings, but what about us? The annoyance I feel towards him still surmounts the most.

How I wish I could make myself NUMB! And let apathy reign through me, 'coz I am just making myself commit a sin.... T_T

Definitely HATE it~!

I'm not a disdainful type of person still I certainly do hate person with this kind of characteristics or traits:

1) Unfair

2) Selfish

3) Self-centered

4) One-sided

5) Narrow-minded

6) Insensitive

7) Indifferent

8) Domineering, haughty personality

I hate it~! I loathe this kind of feeling... Wish I could never... ever... encounter this kind of person, and if I still did, I could not conceive of  what will I do, perhaps I really don't know... T_T

Still on Hiatus

My hiatus is still on the run... That's why I cannot keep on track with my updates with my blog... T-T

I would really want to keep and save every moments of my life, whether it's exultant, gloomy, memorable, embarrassing, outlandish or crazy one. It's just that I'm so slothful in writing, it always makes lazy. I am way better in typing were my scribbles won't be messy and wouldn't be that much bothering for me, for I can always save first a draft of my writing and resume whenever I want to. I always hate the fact that I could write a diary or something which I couldn't actually persistently accomplish.

Yeah~! You're right from what you've just read, you're not being mistaken. I think I could consider this one as an online diary of mine whereas I could preserve and cherish, maybe it couldn't be all, but at least most of the memories of my dearest life.

Sore ja, bye-bye~! v^_^

Missing My Mom...

Awww.. I really really miss her so much in the depths of my heart and soul... :'C



To be continued... (This post will be updated on September 25, 2010)

The Decline of Admiration

The Decline of Admiration

For the past years, I have this someone whom I valued so much from my 2^nd year in grade school until the present. I am yet more troubled when lately I have dreamt of him. Even more, I wonder why it happened as such, though I have had dreams of him for quite a lot of times. And it really irritates me for I wanted to get rid of him in my thoughts already.

At first I thought he was kind and has a good personality but, I end up becoming wrong. My sister was right when she stated, “He’s arrogant”, and that simple statement shows that she doesn’t really like people with that similar trait. And recently, I’ve found out his true colors, for I never knew his real characteristics because, way back to our grade school on our 3^rd year, he transferred to another school, which is the NEU.  Then, I learned that he is somewhat perverted, and together with his associates or should I call it “partners-in-crime”, they do their silly acts. Not to mention that this person I am pertaining is well-known in their campus, he has the looks and the brain, and he’s even rich, or in short, he has the image of a heartthrob. Until all of these characteristics that he has made him so proud, to the point that he doesn’t want to acquire duty to the church, even the lightest obligation you could take for he supposed that this could become the hindrance to his studies and be an obstacle for him to achieve high grades. You could also consider him as a chickboy. He has this kind of outrageous principle, “Why I must need to court a girl, when they are the ones who are showing off”, and if he had the chance, he could even say “From that, I could just simply collect and select”.

I was really turned off of what I have sorted out. These really got into my nerves, and made my blood boil and nearly reach its highest point. I thought I knew him already, but then, when I came back to myself, I just realized that I made a bad choice, and maybe I am not that good in scrutinizing someone else’s personality. And from then on, I attempted to erase him from my thoughts, and forget that he became special to me. I tried familiarizing myself from not doing the things which I’m used to: to think about him, to reminsce the memories I have with him and the like. However, it really bothers me when all of a sudden; I am starting to recollect something about him which makes me nag myself.

But I presume that my feeling towards him is already declining and so do I thought… I don’t consider this feeling of mine to this particular someone as love. I believe that what I feel is just an infatuation for I never did consider myself to be in love with anyone yet.